Redheaded Angel

“I like your chain,” she said.

English: CVS/pharmacy on Garrett Road in Durha...

This is where love can happen. No shit.

I looked up at the redhead, then down at my neck to see what I was wearing: a simple and inexpensive silver necklace.

We were standing in the CVS Pharmacy for pick-up of prescription drugs. I was in line. She stood off to the side. She was close to my height, about 5 foot 5 inches tall, and slim but not skinny. I guessed her age to be somewhere in her forties, but it was hard to tell. Her face exuded youthfulness despite fine wrinkles evident around her mouth and eyes. Her features were perfect, and yet there was something imperfect about her.

“I wanted to hang something from the chain but nothings fits,” I said. The redhead looked confused so I added, “I mean, nothing fits over the clasp, so I have to wear it plain.”

She nodded and smiled.

Her hair looked kind of like this but red.

She had a full head of hair, in a stylish old-fashioned cut: medium short, just below her hairline in the back, brushed high up on top of her head and flowing down the sides and over her ears. A version of a 1970s shag cut, I thought, decades behind the times, but it looked good on her. Her red hair was beautiful: so full and shiny, more carrot-orange than red. Despite the obvious cut, her hair gave the impression of being windblown and natural. She seemed windblown and natural, like some higher power had just blown an angel into the CVS Pharmacy.

I stared. I smiled back. I felt goofy and mesmerized and could think of nothing further to say. Soon an older version of her, which turned out to be her mother, cut in front of me in line at the CVS.

“You were supposed to be waiting in line,” she said to her daughter. She said it with kindness.

The daughter spoke, “I know, but…” and that’s when I noticed the speech impediment, subtle but there. She had a slow pace to her speech, as if she were retarded, which she was not as far as I could tell, or as if she’d had a stroke, which perhaps had been the case.

She smiled again, this time at her mother. I caught the full-on smile, and my heart melted all over the floor. I wanted to know her. There was something wrong with her, possibly several things wrong with her – in a medical sense – and yet she was perfect: beautiful blue eyes, a little chiseled nose, and small straight white teeth. I gawked. I began to feel like a creep so I looked away and used my peripheral vision. I became a creep peering at her from the corner of my eye.

She took a step and when she did, she revealed a serious limp. Beyond a limp: her left leg moved up off the floor in a big half-moon circle as she walked. When she finally removed her left hand from her jacket pocket, it, too, was messed up. Once we would have used the word “gimpy.” I’m not sure what the correct term is now. She put her gimpy hand back in her pocket. I wondered again about stroke.

Her hair also looked kind of like this but not as long in the back – and red.

“Do you remember this song?” her mother said. A seventies song by the band Chicago, “Only the Beginning,” played in the background.

“Of course I remember,” she said.

My eyes remained focused on her, sometimes directly, sometimes not. I wasn’t sure if she noticed me watching, but I could not help myself.

She sang softly, “Only the beginning, only just a start…” She hummed and sang throughout the song. I listened to her soft singing, riveted. She was singing because she was happy. She knew all the words. Maybe she was even older than I was. She was a red-headed joyful, spirit. Maimed yet perfect. I was un-maimed yet so imperfect. She sang the next song that played over the speakers, another song from back in the day.

I imagined myself walking over to her, to hold her in my arms, for a moment, ten minutes, for an hour, forever. I wanted to absorb her love and beauty. Is this love at first sight? Or this is the reaction when you spot an angel who walks the earth, or perhaps a soul you knew and loved in another lifetime? The law of attraction drew me toward her, although I did not budge an inch.

“What is your name?” Her mother asked the young pharmacist — a lovely young black man I’d seen many times before when picking up my own mother’s prescriptions. He said, “Tyreese.” It was an unusual name; at least to an older white mother, so she asked, not surprisingly, “Could you say that again?” Honestly, I needed to hear it again because I hadn’t quite caught it either. Simultaneous with her question to the pharmacist, her daughter said, “Tyreese” (perfectly) under her breath, and then louder, “Hello, Tyreese.” That’s when I knew she was brilliant and cognizant of all that happened around her. She continued to sing.

I knew I’d never see this woman again. She was just a moment along a chain of moments and events that make up a life – mine and hers, her mother’s, my mother’s (I was picking up my mother’s drugs, which is how I came to be standing in the CVS that day.) I’m writing this all down so I never forget the moment. Not wanting to forget is the reason I write anything, I think.

At the moment of seeing this love of my life, who I would never see again, I knew she’d come into my life for a reason: to remind me of what I need to feel.

She walked past me and looked at me as she left the store with her mother.

I said, “Have a good day.”

“You, too, hon…” she said.

About Cindy Zelman

Creative and Freelance Writer
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19 Responses to Redheaded Angel

  1. Deanna says:

    Everything happens on time. You found the answer in this beautiful moment. I read this and was mesmerized also. Mesmerized because your words allowed me to visualize this awesome moment in your life. The lack of chemistry was not about imperfections, it just was. Thank you for sharing.

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    • Cindy Zelman says:

      Hi Deanna,

      I so appreciate your reading the post and your remarks. I know you get this stuff. You tend to be a positive person who recognizes beautiful moments. Sometimes I recognize them, too. Thank you for feeling this moment with me. xo

      Cindy

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  2. robin hall says:

    sometimes people come into our lives for a reason. this week you talked about your break up and your feelings of being overwhelmed. reasons to feel selfish and self absorbed, yet you paused and saw her beauty, inside and out. you have a big heart cindy.

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    • Cindy Zelman says:

      That was a very sweet comment, Robin, thank you. And thank you for reading. It’s been a complicated week. I’ve been thinking about you lately; it’s been awhile since I heard from you, so it’s good to see you here. Cindy

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  3. Kassie says:

    Serendipity, Cindy.

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  4. Kris Domich says:

    It is moments like that, which remind us of the potential in every moment. I’ve been working at my own lessons in awareness of each moment, as I’ve come to realize there is more going on than meets the eye. I’m noticing a greater dimension to those little things that really are gifts in each day.

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    • Cindy Zelman says:

      Hi Kris, that was very well said. Thank you for reading and commenting. Seeing that woman yesterday makes me want to be more aware each day to the beauty that exists, but that I could easily overlook. Good to hear from you. Cindy

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  5. Geenie says:

    lovely. She sounds lovely. Glad you had that moment you needed.

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  6. Kerry says:

    What an incredible snapshot, CIndy. And it’s not because I know CVS pharmacies so well. It’s always about the writing. You could have kept this to yourself but along with your tender writing comes your generous spirit. I so love the timing of this. God is always watching, always. 🙂

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    • Cindy Zelman says:

      Hey Kerry,

      Thank you for reading and for your very kind words. I agree the timing was amazing. And I do believe that woman was an angel. I believe angels walk the earth, often in the form of humans who appear to have defects such as hers – but whose spirits are, indeed, perfect. I hear you about God. Thank you for reading my work.

      xo
      Cindy

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  7. It’s moments like this that make life so special and teach us so much all in an instant. Thank you for sharing this one with us!

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    • Cindy Zelman says:

      Hi Faye,

      I couldn’t agree more with your comment. I forgot to mention that her head shook slightly and I wondered about Parkinson’s like your dad has. She was special and does make us all stop and think about what is beautiful in life. Thank you for reading.

      Happy Birthday on Friday.
      Cindy

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  8. Elissa says:

    Cindy,

    “Not wanting to forget is the reason I write anything down, I think, ” you say. This is precisely the reason I write. Too often we let seemingly random moments of connection to others slip by us, but you recorded the scene for yourself and for the pleasure of your readers. We stand in line with you at the CVS trying not to gawk at the imperfect beauty of your “red headed angel” and we experience the feelings she stirs in you. Thanks for writing the words that connect us to you and your lovely moment.

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    • Cindy Zelman says:

      Thank you, Elissa. I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to get back to you. My weekdays are long and busy nowadays. My redheaded angel was important in that moment, after a tough week of negative experiences. I like to record the significant moments and events of my life, good, bad, and in between. I know you do, too. Thank you for reading and commenting. Cindy

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  9. Erik Volk says:

    Great story! Your “red headed” angel reminds me once again of how happiness is really often a choice. Special people randomly float into our life, if even for a moment, with problems we cannot fathom dealing with. These special people emit such a powerful positive energy that we cannot help but be drawn to them. Perhaps, they are angels. Truthfully, so many of us are damaged in some way but our problems are multiplied by us fixating on them and going over and over them in our head. We forget that when we are truly living it is in the moment whether that is on the seashore, in the mountains, in our living room or under the fluorescent lights of a CVS pharmacy. Thanks for the great story! Looking forward to more.

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    • Cindy Zelman says:

      Hi Wrik,

      It’s so great that you’re reading my blog. Your comments are so thoughtful. I agree with all you have to say. I think the word may be mindfulness. If we’re mindful of the present moment, angels, love, and beauty may present themselves. As you suggest, this can happen anywhere. It’s just so hard to get out of our own way and be in that moment. Thank you for reading, Erik, it means a lot to me. Cindy

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    • Cindy Zelman says:

      Sorry for the typo I. Your name, Erik!

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