Some of you are aware of what I’ve been dealing with lately due to someone from my past finding an essay that was recently published. While the experience itself begs for an essay on the nightmare of your past colliding with your present, issues such as defamation of character, and whose truth is the real truth, etc., the piece the woman called about has been taken down at my request. As always, the editors at Connotation Press: An Online Artifact, are wonderful and supportive.
After much back and forth with this woman, I have decided that I want to rename her character and be done with it and with her. I wish you well, XXXXX, but hearing from you is not what I want. I loved you once but many years have have come and gone – a decade and a half – and we cannot build a bridge from the past to the present. After thinking it over these last few days, I realize I do not want your opinion on my story. Out of respect for your wish for privacy, I will keep the edits we’ve already done together so you can never be identified, but no more. We can only tell our side of the story, if we wish to do so, and accept it as our own truth. My truth is not your truth and your truth is not mine. And I am not writing journalism. This isn’t about the facts as you remember them. It’s about the emotional truth as I remember it.
If you read this, I ask you to please not be in touch again.
For the rest of you, here are a list of potential replacement names, for the title “XXXXX Songs.” What name do you think I should use?
Antonia Luisa Songs
Bianca Stella Songs,
Thank you for reading and for any feedback you can provide.